To Blog or Not to Blog

I have taken quite a vacation from blogging - at first because I thought I was too busy and because I was traveling, but I finally had to admit, I was staying away on purpose. Does everyone in their first months of blogging, I wonder, question their motives and their purpose?

I want to keep this soul searching blog short -- but I do want to state clearly here, why I am going to re-committ to blogging.

I had several things in mind when I started - I wanted to share things that I had learned or observed that would be help other people live in a more thoughtful and sustainable way. But, I also wanted to rail against all the things that we so stupidly accept that are tantamount to being led like sheep to the slaughter. (like genetic engineering, factory farming, over-consumption of stuff and throw-away everything). Somehow I would sway people to change, not a little but a big whole life kind of change that would ultimately be part of a movement that would change the world. I don't mean to sound over-grandiose here - I didn't think to single handedly change the world, I just hoped to make a difference and be part of instigating deep, revolutionary change. But as I wrote, I noted that I would only make a difference by developing a following and to develop a following I would have to be interesting, or clever or engaging. When I started the blog though, I really didn't think about getting readers. But then I started to get a few comments and a few more readers and then I started to feel obligated to write for my readers. So I started to feel stuck - what should I write about or even should I write at all.

I would loveto hear if others have run into questions of purpose for their blogs and how they resolved them. For me, I will keep going, probably with some more political posts than before, but also more how to's and observations on living more sustainably. And I will try not to become too preachy, too boring, too uninteresting - perhaps to tall of an order. But I have learned that blogging is about self-expression, and having fun and connecting to others and most of all -- self-experience and self-experimentation. So here's to a new year of ----- well, whatever it turns our to be.